Would you have been able to use civil disobedience and non-violence?

I don't think I could withstand all the punishments. Many of the white opposers would probably try to discourage me by spitting or taunting me. I don't think I could handle. I'm not patient enough. I also couldn't do it considering that I might have to pay the ultimate price - my life. If my life was threatened I couldn't not fight back, thus destroying my cause.